Nothing To Say

     Depression can be so devastating.  Defined by the dictionary, depression means a condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason.   However, this word means so much more than just that simple definition.          I have suffered with depression for quite some time now.  I remember coming home from school, sick with migraines and I was saddened but I do not remember being depressed.  I was actually diagnosed in 1992 with depression.  Instead of getting to the root of the problem,  it was just easier to the doctors to prescribe medication and I was on my way.     Some people believe depression is just when someone is sad.  WRONG!  Depression goes way beyond sadness.  It's not just a "mood" and it isn't just a "bad day".  What people do not experience, they cannot understand just how much this effects a person and everyone around them

       Lately, I have been wishing I had someone to just be able to call up and say "I need to chat.  Not about anything.  Just need to hear someone else's voice."  I wish I could just call up a friend and say "hey, come have coffee with me.  I just want to hang out for a bit."  Unfortunately, I do not have a vehicle so I guess what I am feeling is trapped.      Picture yourself in a box, big enough for you, have someone duct tape it shut.  THIS is how I am feeling.  I feel like a bird in a cage who never gets let out so I can stretch my wings.  A dog who really needs to get out of the cage he's been in all night.          Trapped is such a versatile word!  You can be trapped in so many different ways.  Trapped in a relationship, trapped in a job, a friendship.   Maybe you are in a relationship that is toxic and you really need to get out of but feel you cannot or that you have no options.  Maybe you are at a job that you must keep for financial